My Brain Is On Fire

Straight up, I came up with the title for this post in a second and completely embraced how dramatic it sounds. My brain is literally on fire, and this isn't going to be a post about how sad life is, or how my thoughts keep me up at night. Let's be honest, that isn't something new to the human race (or the current generation of young people who are committed to intrapersonal understand to such a fault it borders on narcissism). Nah, instead I'd like to talk about how every god damn time I want to write on this blog, my mind floods with topics to write on and I end up writing nothing. Yup, same topic as last post. Why you ask? Why such an informal tone? Because my class was cancelled for tomorrow so I get to stay up late(r) and write on my blog while I''m just tired enough not to put effort into a formal tone.

I feel like my inability to control the spreading fire of thoughts in my mind is due in large part to my upbringing. Not to say that I didn't have all I needed and a loving family to support me, no, but I did spend a bunch of time in front of a variety of screens. Television screens, computer screens, GameBoy and then Nintendo DS Lite screens....my phone screen. It's just how modern times are. We remain relevant and up to date on pop culture and news by putting attaching pieces of velcro on our eyes and the pairing screen and just soak up what we see. I am no different. I'd like to think I'm a critical thinker who has a well of independent thought and ideas but in reality, I'm pretty sure I unconsciously absorb all I see and just process it slower than how I see it. Like most of us. It's like Deja Vu, but for human thought. We have this great idea, thinking we are innovative or special for thinking it, when in reality someone else wrote a Facebook rant on the subject, and they themselves heard it from some other source. It's crazy in all honesty.

And this is what I mean. With so much input to process, there is no way we as a technologically savvy society would not end up constantly consuming, thinking and regurgitating other people's ideas. I mean, if I'm being totally honest, I'm not the first person to think of writing a blog about a "new adventure in life," and it would be ridiculous of me to think that anyone really gives a shit about what I write. Sure this blog could go viral and soon everyone is hanging off my every word, but it's unlikely. Like I said, there is so much to consume and my blog isn't even a crumb of what's out there. My blog is hardly interesting for anyone besides me!

So in conclusion, I'm just going to suck it up and just write, because in reality it doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things.

Man it feels great to stay up so late and be like a normal teenager!!....by writing a post for a completely unknown blog.......Wait, it's not that impressive....I already covered that in this post....SEE WHAT I MEAN PEOPLE! I have to constantly remind myself to move on from thinking my blog matters to anyone but me!